A chemical engineer pt.2

7th day of ramadhan. Alhamdulillah. 
I wondered, how can i make this entry more interesting....blahh, there's no one actually read this...kui4. its a shame though but to those who actually  read my entry(s)....i appreciate it...A LOT! saya syg awk lah!

haha..random pic again. back to my most boring enchanting story telling.  i wrote in previous entry that i learned a great lesson that day. starting that day, i was very precautious on what i am doing, speaking, walking..etc. i felt like everybody were watching me, judging me and sadly without knowing me. i just wanna blurted out " hell, im just 18! please dont kill me yet, im too young for this". Yes, its killing me. when i walked in to class...i felt like i was waiting to be punished. what hv i done? Just editing some pic and pblished on facebook, but i took it down! Dang!

Well, soon i realised thats all just my feeling of insecurity, cos i want people to know me as some damn good girls. once i make cute lil mistake, i thought world come to an end. Nahhh...i finally wake up! Screw u! i dont give a damn...haha. lantaklah ko nk cakap apa, ak xheran..sbb apa? Sebab ak taw ko bkn sape-sape dalam hidup aku. Blahhhs...


When i was in part 3 Diploma, for those who got CGPA above 3.00 qualified to go straight to degree in Chemical engineering (ChE). lucky instead, i managed to secure my CGPA, Alhamdulillah.  Yay! Escaped from Dungun!
Here i come Shah Alam. Well, every decision we make has its pro and cons. Some, we'll regret but some we'll cherished. and coming to Shah Alam is the best thing ever. but sadly, i left my dearest friend Fatin Keiko.

Best Friends = Cheer you up when you're down;                  Comforts you when you're sad;
Fightfor you when you're hurt!

2ne1 - Ugly

here are some comments that kind of, cool~

In MY opinion, this song is about reality, imperfections, insecurities and freedom of speech.. I think that this song is trying to put across a message that its okay to say "I'm ugly" and just let all the feelings of insecurity OUT! anyways, this is an AMAZING song that a lot of people nowadays can really relate to.. <3

ssxdotxss 1 week ago 205 

I hate how this song really and honestly describes everything I'm thinking and feeling. The day this came out, I was thinking everything in this song, then I saw a new song from 2NE1 came out and I clicked on it, and all I heard was the chorus, but I just started crying :( I've never felt that way about a song before, and I feel like I sound really fake on here, but I'm telling the whole truth :| Feel free to ignore this comment, bye!

rosettaismynameo 6 days ago 112 

i really really love this song. "Ugly" is all about accepting who you are no matter what the "mold" or "look" is society has for us. Feeling good in your own skin and knowing that you're beautiful is the most important to being a happy and confident girl. thats how i feel on it but the one bad thing about the MV is that the song and the video does seem to match to me?

OniChan1812 11 hours ago 2 




p/s: random words of the day. 

Sometimes it's easier to say that you don't care, than to explain all the reasons why you do.

A chemical engineer pt. 1

Mcm mana? Apa? Mengapa? Bolehkah?  i often think of these....

1. Mcm mn boleh terfikir nk jadi engineer (chemical)?
2. Apa sbnrnya chemical engineer ni? 
3. Mengapa as in why i stick to this? why didn't i bail?
4. Bolehkah i graduate with honor? 
5. Layakkah saya? 

Kadang smpai pening, how come i ended up in chemical engineering (ChE)? since high school, tak penah pn pikir  nk jd engineer. sy memang tak minat engineering sbb 1. otak saya pikir genius je yg bleh jd engineer. 2. engineering is damn hard field! tu belum lg ChE. i mean, come on...ChE is one of the most hardest discipline in engineering.

okay, sambung krgn.  i got in to matriculation in Penang. but, i give up. takde life. i mean quiz every week, tutor class, test, evaluation, start at 8 am, end at 5 pm. Ya Allah, memang xde life. 

Stress, tension. I seriously cant cope up. at the right time, in a right moment...i got an offer from UiTM, Diploma in chemical engineering. Alhamdulillah, i left matrics. 

Then, life starts in Dungun. Alhamdulillah, things get better. I enjoyed being in Dungun untill 2nd semester. This was a really heartbroken moment. i'll keep that in my heart forever. Those things that never hv been said to me, i'd learn that day. Subhanallah, i learned a great lessons that day. 

Before u speak, listen. before u judge, act. before u write, think.